Just wanted to throw out a quick update on the possible adoption situation. Apparently there were three families that showed interest in adopting the baby. One was ruled out by Jennifer's (birthmother) friend (Jane) and apparently Jane had already kind of decided on this other family. However, the secretary of the church (who has been my only contact point) Jane goes to asked her to at least interview both couples. Jane agreed but the interviews won't be until after Jan 1. Of course, my heart sank upon seeing that Jane had already kind of decided. Now, we are on our knees begging for an interview and that Jane would see how much love we already have for this baby. Please, PLEASE, pray that God would work in Jane and Jennifer's heart, to see our love and chose us to raise her precious baby. We are begging for a Christmas miracle. Please, join us!
We have also decided to postpone the surrogacy for at least a year for financial reasons. It's a lot of money that we just don't have and can't guarantee at this point in life. It hurts to have to do that and while outsiders continue to say, "Oh! That's probably a good idea." or "Yeah, understandable." the fact is, we should have our baby boy here now. The fact that we don't have $30,000 at our disposal shouldn't be the reason we can't bring our newborn home from the hospital. But there isn't much we can do about it. We obviously made this decision not knowing if the adoption would pan out or not, but at least having that hope helped ease the pain of having to postpone the surrogacy. In the midst of so much uncertainty and hope that is seemingly fading I can do nothing but cling to my Savior and hope for the best.
The best Christmas gift to us would be to pray! Please, pray for us!
My heart just breaks for you right now. We should be celebrating Christmas with our little boy too and it sucks not having him here. I'm honestly having a hard time with most of this but play "happy" so that other people won't be uncomfortable. It's supposed to be the "most wonderful time of the year" and my heart is so heavy with grief. I try to think of how blessed we are to have two little boys, a warm home, Jonathan has a job, I get to stay home...and especially be thankful for Jesus birth and His ultimate sacrifice and I carry that joy in my heart but it's hard to be happy on the outside. We will be praying. We missed meeting with you all last night. Hope to see you soon!
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