Yes, it's true. I am 20 weeks pregnant. Yes, we were advised by professionals to not try again, yes we were trying to prevent it, yes, SOMEONE else had another plan...
We sold all (most) of our baby stuff at a garage sale in May (clothes, stroller, car seats, bottles, etc.) In June, we moved from a mini van to an SUV crossover--all the while knowing we'd love more kids but knowing IF and when another option came up it would be several years. HAHAHAHA says God.
I felt pretty sick the whole month of August and when I went to the dr. they ran some lab tests on hormone levels and what not. She wanted to give me a shot but said we had to make 100% sure I wasn't pregnant. I assured her I wasn't but she said to wait 2 weeks, take a test and then we could proceed with the shot. I bought a 3 pack of tests on the way home and the next day decided I might as well take one. I didn't think anything of it but as I washed my hands I glanced down at the test and saw it. That second pink line. It was definately a double take moment followed by, "OH S**T!" and "What are we gonna do?" and "Why?" and then the hysteria. We got into the perinatal center right away and Dr. Mandsaager (who is probably the most serious & intimidating person I've ever met) reminded us of the dangers, promised to do all they/we could to make this one different and said he would want to deliver at 28 weeks to prevent any sort of tragedy. He said at 28 weeks there is a 90-95% survival rate with no complications (obviously the baby would be in the NICU for quite sometime) but those odds are far better than what the past has shown us if the baby sticks with me. His main concern was another abruption because even if I was being monitored in the hospital and the placenta abrupted there is a very good chance they wouldn't be able to save the baby.
Soooo...I am 20 weeks and going strong. Everything looks great so far, baby measures on track, blood pressure has been stable, etc. I have been pretty sick the whole time and SUPER SUPER DUPER nervous. That's why we have waited to tell people but are ready now to beg and plead for your earnest and fervent prayers! This has already been an incredibly difficult journey. Trying to find a balance between guarding our hearts and finding hope. We KNOW God is capable of amazing and wonderful things (we have 2 miracles to remind us everyday). But we also know the deep pain that comes when you live in a fallen world. We know God can knit this baby to a healthy, LIVING 28 week angel and we pray He will. Until then, we are clinging to and living on the prayers of family and friends. PLEASE, join us!
January 17th will be 28 weeks....less than 2 months. But as we know, A LOT can happen in that time. Pray for our hearts, pray we can cling to hope, and that the peace of God would fill us. Pray that God knits the precious one together to be healthy, pray for our plans, pray for our arrangements with a baby in the NICU for several weeks and 2 at home. Just pray...we are weary and in need of our fellow believers to carry us through!
Thank you so much!
