...I will find time to blog...
Indeed, it has been quite a while since the last blog and, as you can imagine, a lot has happened. Please, allow me to enlighten you.
Seth and Grace (along with Sissy, Jack and Brooklyn) are visiting great grandpa in MN. I, of course, stayed home in case the baby decided to arrive. After a month of watching two additional 3yr old girls...I was much looking forward to the "break." The silence has been amazing and the house is sparkling clean! Laundry caught up, errands ran, nap taken, mani/pedi tomorrow...yep, it's been a treat. However, I am REALLY ready for them to be back now!!!
So yes, I watched two girls this past month while their parents finished up their school year. 3, 3 year old girls = well...a lot of things. LOTS of laughs, lots of milk, cat fights, LOTS of questions, Princess dresses and dolls galore and one tired Sonya! It really was tiring but I enjoyed it. The girls made me laugh a TON and Grace loved having someone her age to play with. Katie and Lauren will be coming back in the fall when school starts again too!
Seth has been busy lining up summer projects and trying to figure out how to balance work and his demanding wife :) He does a great job...he's quite the guy! And I'm telling you...he's getting funnier and funnier!
So, we moved. Again. Basically our house was not selling and the owners of the home we were hoping to buy started feeling the heat of having to close the deal. So, we decided to move back to our "old" house which is about to become our "new and improved" house. At first we were both really upset and just felt lke another dissapointment had found its way into our lives. But once we got back into our "old" house, it felt like home (at least I thought so...Seth is still working on it). We are settled in and ready for this new baby to come along. We've decided to make this house work and therefore, we are going to be doing some remodeling/adding on. The plans are all underway, we hit the bank Thursday and start knockin down some walls Friday. That's my plan...Seth says that is not the correct order of events for such project. I will post pics periodically to monitor the progress of "Operation Old House Transformation" (OOHT) for your viewing pleasure.
So...Grace...Yes, THIS Grace-------> turns THREE on Friday! THREE!?!?! Are you kidding me?!?! I can NOT believe the time has gone this fast and with each day she becomes more and more of a blessing. I am so unbelievably proud to be her mommy! She also says that I'm her best friend and I always will be. She also wants to marry me though...or Jesus. I can see how that would be a tough choice :) Grace has been very clear for a couple months now that for her birthday she would like a Princess scooter, a helmet and a Princess horn (easy enough). She also shared she wanted to have a purple party with purple polka dots. Well, someone at Hobby Lobby heard her cause they were all set with purple polka dot paper plates and napkins :) Along with the fact that her gamma/Oma will be here...she is pretty darn excited about this gig! She also knows that after her birthday she gets a baby brother AND she gets to do a dance class. What a life, eh? Oh Grace, the light of my life!
Baby....baby? Baby! Haven't heard much from Jennifer lately. She is waiting to be transferred to Oakdale so that when she goes into labor she can go to U of I hospitals. She isn't thrilled about being there, apparently there is less freedom. She says she has made is clear to the baby that they aren't to be there long :) When we last visited her (a week ago) she had just seen the dr. and he said he didn't think it would be much longer. So...I'm very patiently waiting :) But, since it's 2:14am...the honesty is pouring out and...I gotta say...I've been struggling. I go back and forth between moments of sheer thrill and excitement to crying my eyes out trying to fight a feeling that it's all going to go terribly wrong. I'm struggling with prayer...I feel like I don't know how to talk to God anymore....like if I ask for something it will be taken away, if I say something, the opposite will happen. I love God with all my heart and trust Him as my Lord and Savior...but (much like in marriage) I'm struggling with how to communicate with Him right now. I've been panicking for most of the night tonight assuming something is going to go wrong and that we are going to lose another baby. Everyone says/assumes/thinks "Oh! It'll be just fine! I know it! God wouldn't do that to you." But He might...God is God and he can do whatever He wants. He allows things to happen...ugly things, horrible things. And thanks to sin the in the world there is no bounds to what might be allowed to happen...in which case I guess we can only find peace in the promise that God will bring us through. Anyway, I know...I know...I'm being negative. But this past year it seems that being positive has only led to disappointment and heartache. It's easier this way. I don't know what tomorrow holds. Maybe I'm tired and missing my family. Maybe I'm realistic. Maybe I'm crazy. But...I am tired. So that is my update for today...hopefully next time we'll be talking about the new baby :)
